New to this site. Im lost again 4sure. The past

New to this site. Im lost again 4sure. The past month things seem 2 spiral pretty quickly. I need a plan this time b4 it gets worse and i know it can and will if i dont reach out. Never been good at that part but im scared. I worked so hard to rebuild my life, but i need help. I dont want to admit that part. Feel like a bigger failure 4 it.