I've recently come to understand that I'm an addict. I'm in the process of getting help IRL. I just recently went withdrawal from oxycodone. I noticed that I started drinking more often. I have a history of binge drinking to danger. A history of trying to disappear and fade inside myself (severe dissociation) and oxy allowed me to do it, especially when combined with alcohol.
So yeah. I'm not sure where to go from here. I'm a complex case because I genuinely do need pain management and that's how I get oxycodone. It's legally prescribed to me. I'm not getting it from the street.
I succeeded at quitting tobacco and nicotine. I'm not anti-weed but I can't risk it where I am so I'm clean of it.
My whole family deals with severe addiction or a past with drugs which got them in some trouble, and my older cousin (raised like my brother) died a few years ago of a fentanyl OD after decades of heroin addiction.
And my dad is a severe alcoholic and ex-meth addict, as well as weed of course and random other drugs in his life.
It's generational.
Kindness appreciated.
