I’m not sure what I’m doing, but I know I need help. I’ve been stuck in a cycle that’s been tearing my life apart, and I’m tired. I’m scared, but I’m here because something in me still wants to fight for a better life. I’ve relapsed more times than I can count, and I don’t feel proud of where I am rn. if you’ve been where I am feeling broken, ashamed, or just done.. hw did you start over? I could really use some honesty and guidance. Thanks for reading..
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Pray,talk to someone,Don't pick up,make a meeting and stop beating up on yourself. Dust yourself off and keep on pushing love you my BROTHERS
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Yosh I remember being in your exact spot emotionally and thinking there was no way I could ever recover. I finally stopped trying to do it my way and accepted guidance and direction from those that have recovered before me. It worked! I have been sober many 24 hours and do not have the desire to use or drink. Life is amazing!
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I also remember being where you are rn Yosh. I was actually in jail and had no where else to turn so handed my reigns over to a God of my understanding. I needed someone else to guide me cause I was trying to kill me. Within the next few days they offered me drug court, got me out of jail, introduced me to AA and NA. This is where I found my new way of life. They told me NO MATTER WHAT, I never had to pick up again. Life is not perfect today but it is so much better than back then. I am so grateful to have gone through the things I did, so I could live this life today.
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Grateful for you. God bless and stay strong always.
That really hit home. That’s where I always lose—when I choose my way..I’m learning to let go. im not giving up
really appreciate you taking the time to share.. it helps. I’m taking notes, staying focused, and working on being stronger than I was yesterdy.
I spent 9 days in detox, 45 days in PHP and then did IOP for 12 weeks. It was a lot and many times I wanted to give up and say f it but I didn’t. The disease is strong but so are you. I go to NA meetings now and stay in touch with my higher power and I feel more stable than I have in 10+ years. I’m 5 months and some days sober and I haven’t been sober this long in my 10+ years of using. Make time for yourself and do stuff for yourself and most importantly do not isolate and reach out(like you did here) when you are struggling! It makes a major difference for me personally. I don’t have the biggest sober circle and I’m not sure about you, but if you need to talk please don’t hesitate to reach out! Hang in there!
Also I remind my self daily, I just need to focus on today. Stay sober Just For Today and tell myself that daily.
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After decades of trying to stop, I tried to take my life Yosh - since I couldn’t even do that right, I chose to follow Jesus and listen to what the doctors and psychiatrist’s told me to do - and I’ve done them all and I’ll have 18 months July 1st - my life has never been better -
accept the help, do what the experts (including people with long term sobriety) tell you to do - give yourself patience and grace - imagine Everything going well!
These Guys said it best! Most , if not all of us have been at this point. We called it Rock Bottom. Through the Gift of Desperation we reached out and Admitted we were powerless over our addiction and our lives have become unmanageable. You've made the first step on your way to recover and we do recover...together. Keep reaching out and by doing so you help us stay sober too.
Ty so much for sharing your story. it really resonated with me. and about avoiding isolation and staying focused on just one day at a time is something I truly need to start prioritizing and get better at. as time went by i slowly started to drift away from all friends & family. Congratulations on five months of sobriety. thats incredible. It’s encouraging to hear from someone who genuinely understands the process. I’d really appreciate staying in touch, and I’ll send you a message soon. Thank you again for your honesty and support.
There's strength in numbers no matter what route you decide to go. When I isolated, relapse was inevitable.