"Next time someone tells me they believe in God, I'll say 'Oh which one? Zeus? Hades? Jupiter? Mars? Odin? Thor? Krishna? Vishnu? Ra?...' If they say 'Just God. I only believe in the one God,' I'll point out that they are nearly as atheistic as me. I don't believe in 2,870 gods, and they don't believe in 2,869."
Ricky Gervais
If you are struggling with the higher power part of the program, keep in mind you aren't the only one. Even those who claim to have a belief in a higher power/God have to ask themselves which one and equally deny all the other possibilities. Dont be scared to question this part of our thinking as well the options we've created for ourselves. You can recover without having to turn your will and life over to a Higher Power no one has yet to understand, let alone pinpoint. Recovery can be practical. It doesnt have to be spiritual right away or even ever.