not feeling very grateful today but i have 30 days tomorrow. and grateful for connecting with an old friend who is a recovering addict as well.
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tbh my life was way better when i was using lol but thank you
Congrats Luna 
. Early sobriety is tuff! Our addictions were our best friends. They made life “bearable”. They allowed us to escape from a reality that we couldn’t handle. I’m not telling you something you don’t already know. You also know that it wasn’t working for you anymore line it used to. You had to do more and more. You had to switch it up to try and keep the demons away. Problems were stacking up. Nothing was getting resolved. This way of life is not sustainable. Hang in there! The feelings will slowly begin to become more manageable as you learn to live without drugs. For now just try and do it one hour at a time
i just want to feel normal. i have no interest in anything
Normal? I have no idea what that feels like lol. I remember feeling very numb early on. Nothing was fun. I only knew life with drugs and alcohol. I missed it, and was in mourning. The only feelings I knew were anxiety, fear, shame, guilt, and resentment. Happiness, peace, love, satisfaction, excitement… those took some time to come back. Life throws a lot at you. You are going to feel stress and anxiety. These recovery programs, along with therapy, podcasts, books, etc, they teach us how to turn down the anxiety levels. Recovery is a process. Be patient. Find a daily recovery program. Most everyone I know that is enjoying sobriety works some sort of program.