I remember in early sobriety. Being out there, ripping and running. I had cussed God for many years. Through the years, God has shown me grace. He is showing me that he was always there. Not letting me die when I overdosed. Not letting the bullets hit me instead they hit the vehicle that I was in. My God never left me nor had he forsaken me.
So if you were wondering about God, he is there for all of us just seek him and he will reveal his self to you.