i want to start my recovery journey, but i haven’t been able to stick with it. i started doing coke like 4 years ago and it went by so quick, idk how i even got here. started off as something fun to do when i went out, but got to a point where i was doing it every day, depending on it to get me through everything……and now i’m stuck. how did you guys make that first step to stop?
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Changed friends and places...been 2 years from it myself....you have to want it.your health and bank account will thank you
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Mine was alcohol, 20 years of 7 days a week 365 morning and night. I was a "functioning " alcoholic. Lost my business, my wife kicked .e out of our house and still wasn't at rock bottom. Don't let it get to that.
It sucks the first couple days, weeks.. I kept my self busy doing small stuff like yard work and cleaning, working, working out, going for bike rides. I feel great now and don't want to ever go back. Definitely stop for yourself. I didn't even tell anyone until people started noticing the difference.
Get through the 1st day of pain and the the 2nd you can do it!!
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only 1 of my friends is even aware that i do it and i doubt she realizes how bad it is. but you're right, it only brings negative things to my life and i have to fight harder for myself. thank you.
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I can feel myself falling deeper and i don’t want my family to notice….it would kill my parents. and my main problem is that I can function like normal, nobody even notices that i’ve been doing it for so long and so much.
I’m going to try and take it day by day, and celebrate even the 24 hours cuz it’s a win.
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I have a cracked addiction and have been clean 5 days. I just keep reminding myself how horrible the 1st few days were. You know that its mind over matter. You know you can sober up n you dont need it everyday. One day at a time. I relaped after 2 years of being sober. Oh just one time for fun...turned into 3 months of full on addiction again. Just remember ur stronger than you know. Think of the money you will save!
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I can get you connected with resources. DM me. What kind of insurance do you have?
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Thank you for all of the encouragement, I really appreciate it. I will post again once I start my journey.
Sade , I am as right there where u are at 45 days ago. IV meth and coke. I lost a good friend 4 days before I quit from a coke overdose. But I still used 4 days after he was gone. I finally woke up one day and said no more today and did same next day. I couldn’t even let a tiny thought creep in about it. If I did I jumped up and busied myself . I know how hard it is but you can do this . I know u can . Let me know if you need to talk . Using or not I will be here for you.
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You’ve already taken a couple huge steps just by showing up here. Asking for help.
That’s real progress. You don’t have to figure everything out today. Just keep coming back, ask questions, and let people here walk with you. Zoom meetings help too, even just listening. I’m proud of you and can’t wait to see you grow!
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it’s really hard when the thought comes because i’m by myself most of the time and I just do it. i want to be strong enough to just say no and go on about my day. what have you done to get your mind off of it?
i want to try a meeting but i’ve just been nervous to go. i feel like if i rip that bandaid off, i’ll be stronger and feel more motivated to do it and stick to it
As soon as it creeps in I immediately try to change my thoughts to a memory that made me feel good and if it’s too strong I get up and try to exercise and I also count in my head . That how I sleep too . Last night I made cooking in my head . I like to use recipes or anything that has steps too it and I go one by one . I hope that helps . I too, am alone a lot. Something as simple as jumping jacks helps me.
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