i want to start my recovery journey, but i haven’t been able to stick with it. i started doing coke like 4 years ago and it went by so quick, idk how i even got here. started off as something fun to do when i went out, but got to a point where i was doing it every day, depending on it to get me through everything……and now i’m stuck. how did you guys make that first step to stop?
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Changed friends and places...been 2 years from it myself....you have to want it.your health and bank account will thank you
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Mine was alcohol, 20 years of 7 days a week 365 morning and night. I was a "functioning " alcoholic. Lost my business, my wife kicked .e out of our house and still wasn't at rock bottom. Don't let it get to that.
It sucks the first couple days, weeks.. I kept my self busy doing small stuff like yard work and cleaning, working, working out, going for bike rides. I feel great now and don't want to ever go back. Definitely stop for yourself. I didn't even tell anyone until people started noticing the difference.
Get through the 1st day of pain and the the 2nd you can do it!!
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only 1 of my friends is even aware that i do it and i doubt she realizes how bad it is. but you're right, it only brings negative things to my life and i have to fight harder for myself. thank you.
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I can feel myself falling deeper and i don’t want my family to notice….it would kill my parents. and my main problem is that I can function like normal, nobody even notices that i’ve been doing it for so long and so much.
I’m going to try and take it day by day, and celebrate even the 24 hours cuz it’s a win.
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I have a cracked addiction and have been clean 5 days. I just keep reminding myself how horrible the 1st few days were. You know that its mind over matter. You know you can sober up n you dont need it everyday. One day at a time. I relaped after 2 years of being sober. Oh just one time for fun...turned into 3 months of full on addiction again. Just remember ur stronger than you know. Think of the money you will save!
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Sade, you're honestly ahead of the game. Knowing that you have a problem and wanting to stop is the first step to changing. Many of us took our addiction way beyond this point losing families and much more along the way. I also struggled with cocaine and alcohol for 26 years!
You've already made the first step! Now you need to take the next step. I recommend getting to an AA or NA meeting which may help you do that. If you're nervous about going you can also join meetings virtually from home. If you're nervous about doing even the virtual meetings I highly recommend at least getting a copy of the Alcoholics Anonymous Big Book or the NA Big Book and reading it.
For me, the AA Big Book opened my eyes to what was really happening with me and also opened the gateway for me to continue on my sober journey!
Glad you joined the community! We're all here to help. I wish you the best on your journey! Don't hesitate to ask anyone here more questions if you feel the need.
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I can get you connected with resources. DM me. What kind of insurance do you have?
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Thank you for all of the encouragement, I really appreciate it. I will post again once I start my journey.