Today I took a road trip home to have dinner with my family. It’s always nice to see family. But this trip was strange for me. The route I have to travel is the route I used to have to take when I would see my dealer. Needless to say there are a ton of memories involving this stretch of highway. I recently celebrated a year clean, but today it feels like everything just happened last week. I guess I now know what people at meetings are talking about when they say despite having a little bit of time they still don’t feel very far removed from the drugs. These memories are still so vivid. I’m just going to have to allow myself to feel what I feel without judgement and remind myself how far I’ve come on my journey.
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Congratulations on the one year anniversary Will! And congratulations on being curious and setting aside judgment of those memories. Keep doing what you’re doing. It’s definitely working for you. 
Congratulations! You are doing a great job! Never give up.