On aug 9th this yr i had open heart surgery double bypass. I had multiple strokes. I ended up having staph insie my wound. So now i have nightly IV antibiotics. So that means i have a PIC line in my arm. Its every bangers dream to have a pic line. So even tho i have been sober a long time, i have been dreaming and thinking about using all the time. I know it will kill me if i do but i wake up thinking of it and go to ved dreaming of it. Any advice?
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It's only been a week but I feel like I'm struggling today to stay afloat of being clean and sober but I don't need that setback of starting over
Have it removed. My daughter had endocarditis and had to have antibiotics IV for 8 weeks once a week because she refused the Pic line. That could be a very strong reason to be exercising the idea. Have it removed. Sounds like a relapse mentally. Next will be physically. Ask if it can be administered another way
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Because I did so much damage to my veins from shooting up for years they can't administer it any other way. I am at my moms making myself accountable for my cravings. I don't administer the meds myself nor do I take my pain medication myself. I'm that hypervigilante making sure i don't relapse. But I only have until the 30th for iv then the 4th the infusion center will remove it. But I'm still scared I guess talking about it helps.
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A week is a week. A week is longer than a day. Just remember any time being sober is a celebration. Because you did it!
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Try not to focus on it but focus on what you will lose if you did so happen to use your IV line for drug use and the situation that you are in because of drug use and how your life has improved since you became sober? Stay strong and you can always hit me up if you need someone to talk to.
Thank you your right. I'm also being honest with my mom whose taking care of me cuz I'm unable to since the surgery and strokes. But I'm almost 5 yrs sober. The cravings now are horrible.
Take vitamin D3 with K2 in the mornings. I've been trying to quit for 7 years and have been without cravings, about 2 months, since I started taking that and it's a night and day difference. I personally take Dr. Bergs vitamins but as long as they aren't low quality they should help 
Stay strong. You made the right choice by having someone hold you accountable. You got this
Pray to your Higher Power and ask for help. Ask that the compulsion and obsession be removed. I am sober about 5 years from crack and cocaine. I used about 45 years. I shouldn't be alive. My Higher Power helps me every day
Thank you for your words regarding my post it makes me feel I can go onthe clean and sober journey of the life I want
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They were giving it to my daughter in the big vein in her neck