Ok new to all this but ive been dealing with

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Ok new to all this but ive been dealing with addiction for over 15 years always used something herion was worse but been struggling ill go days without but seems i always f up always get in my head feeling come idk really not having anyone to talk to but just feel like need someone talk to

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#2

Take it one day at a time OJ! Go to as many AA meetings as you can. Get phone numbers of people you can call.

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#3

I feel you. I'm a single mother of 5 grown kids, my retirement plan was to live mobile so I could travel between them so I could spend equal time with all of them. Growing up, in a very abusive home, reminded daily I was not wanted, hated and retarted/stupid, ext. My chance to have that loving family of my own was all I saw. When they walked away once they no longer needed me, and walked away as if I never happened it broke something in me how am I supposed to believe that I'm worthy of something if no one ever sticks around they all walk away and never look back like they never cared in the first place and then all I can feel is so much pain and I get high because I don't know how to do it I want to feel anymore

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#4

They have these two beautiful dogs and they're the only thing that's keeping me alive

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#5

Into Boot and flipping homeless I've been homeless for 6 years now living in a car with my dogs if they didn't need me I wouldn't be here

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#6

Welcome, I’m really glad you’re here.

That stuck in your head feeling and trying to do this alone will wear you down. So don’t do it alone. Keep posting here even if it’s just to say you’re having a rough day.

An hour sober matters. Some have told me that it's rediculous I say am hour matters and maybe even more than 30 days but it's true. When you’ve lived in addiction, an hour is a miracle because it's an hour we never thought we'd ever get. It then turns into a 5 then a day. That’s how this works. We get in tho trouble when we compare our day one to someone else’s day 30 or where we think we should be

You're in good hands here. Rooting for you

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#7

Thank you and yeah just got back from one tonight and working on getting ppl to talk to thats going be the hard part im not a talkative person something I gotta work on

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#8

Sorry to hear that and I feel ya had a ruff time growing up always felt alone nobody there but just got to take it day by day

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#9

Thank you so much I love that a hours matters so true

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