On the 8th I'll have 2 months of sobriety again. I had 12 years before this relapse. I feel horrible that at 33 I'm back at square 1. Things are rough today..
You still have 12 years and lots of good work getting there. So a part broke down, you fixed it and will continue on your journey. Good job!
Today is the first day of the rest of your life.
I'm 35 and just starting my sobriety journey. You had the sheer intelligence and will to do what I couldn't do at the age of 21. I salute you and send you my best wishes. You can do this!
It’s hard to start over, but sometimes we need a reset. I’m on my recovery version 2.0. Got sober at 24 and spent the next 26 years substance free. I don’t know your circumstances, but I completely stopped working on myself after year 9 or 10. I became I husband, father, career chaser etc. I kinda got lost in all of it. I became restless, irritable, and discontent. Felt like daddy needed a “break”. I found it necessary to “escape” from life as the crazy world swirled around me. At 24 I had no clue who I was, so it was kinda hard to dig deep and heal. This time around I have a lot more experience and wisdom. It’s painful, but now you get a do over. Make the most of it. Look at as a challenge to really change your life. I bet one day you will feel grateful for this path.