On the struggle bus today

Recovery
#21

I have been mostly honest. There was only 1 time before today I didn't tell her about.

In treatment I had a great psychiatrist that prescribed herbals instead. St John's wart, and a stress complex with L Theanine and lavender, lemon balm, and chamomile. TBH I think it makes me depressed. I have ADD as well so when I wrnt into treatment I cut that out as well. Last time adderrall was the only thing that kept me from jumping off a bridge. I'm determined not to go back on it bit I just feel so hopeless.

#22

Sending you a virtual hug. Since this is a new behavior, please discuss it with your therapist in more detail. You matter!!! :purple_heart:

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#23

Currently at a bday party with my daughter, granddaughter and family all around. If they only knew what awful thoughts were going through my mind. ... and no, I don't feel like I can tell anyone.

#24

Hey can you chat?

#25

Well you’re reaching out to this group so you have a lot of courage! Don’t give up and don’t give in. You sound like a fighter. Take a deep breath and be kind to yourself.

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#26

That’s understandable, sorting through our wreckage (caused by us and caused by others) is tough. But you definitely don’t want to develop the habit of using self-harm to cope. Sobriety is all about new coping mechanism.

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#27

Yeah, I just accepted your request

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#28

Tell her to man up or woman up as the case may be. Gratitude for sobriety and stuff.

#29

Thanks, that's what im doing. Appreciate your support. Have a great day!

#30

I still get mad about things I can’t control. More gratitude for me as well😊

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#31

I just left a meeting. You got this. It's hard but you'll get through it. How are you feeling now?

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#32

Better. Logged into a meeting last night. Spoke with some sober friends. Woke up this morning and read my daily reflection, did my meditation. Gonna find a meeting this morning. Meetings can't cure all the stresses of life but the support does help.