On the Struggle Bus

Struggling Help
#1

Well, here we go! I was sitting here, playing a video games and trying to avoid my mind of any depressive thoughts at the moment, and then the urge to act out hit me hard. Fortunately, the first thing I thought of when this happened was to Open up in journal and also put a post out about my struggles.

Never in my recovery process have I felt such a desire to document the struggle as I do right now. On a scale of one to 10, with 10 being the inevitable and 1 not a threat, my urge is probably like a 6. – Just on the other side of unmanageable.

as I shut down this experience, the urge is subsiding – a really huge point. After this, I’m gonna check in with my local group and relay the same.

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#3

Hang in there it's a struggle stand strong

#4

Great job journaling. Pick up the phone and CALL your sponsor.

Don’t have one? Seek out someone that lives and breathes recovery. Knows the BB. Has a huge God presence in their life.
Not only talks the talk but walks the walk.
I’ve been blessed to have the same sponsor for 30 years. She has 5 more years of sobriety than I do and lives the program in ALL aspects of her life.

She’s my rock and knows me like the back of her hand. I’m blessed to me able to go to her as my dad is dying. I can share my pain and process using the steps and the God of my understanding. :pray::peace_symbol:

#5

THE DREAM...THE STRUGGLE...AND THE PRIZE :trophy:.. STRUGGLING IS GOOD FOR YOU IF YOU KNOW YOUR HEADING IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION . trust the PROCESS

#6

You stayed sober!! That's great. Remember what works and keep it going.

#7

I also love journaling and find it very beneficial during recovery. It’s great to be able to get out every single innermost thought, and be able to reflect later on by rereading to understand what some of your triggers may be and of your reason why you’re on this journey. I’m also glad that you are seeking guidance from your local group as that is just as important. Congratulations on staying strong, you got this!

#8

What video game? He'll divers 2 has been my latest addiction

#9

Staying in community with like-minded people helps tremendously. Get out and off the games and talk to real people. It helps a lot and remember always look up and pray for strength.