I want to stay clean and be working on my recovery. My partner thinks that by giving me fentanyl that he is just helping my pain and I can keep my clean time. He does not seem to understand that it does not work like that. I need 0 substances for me to be clean. I'm back to square one, yet again. This is exhausting. I'm tired of living with somebody who does not think they are an addict. I need to get back to fully working on myself and my recovery to better myself and be happy with myself. I need to figure out how to get through to him that he needs to stop giving it to me. Any ideas would be fantastic.
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This may be out of line but I really think if you can't get through to him and he really loves you allegedly then he don't really care he's too deep in his recovery and he don't want to get sober and your best bet for you in my opinion is to move on and do you if you really want to get sober you need to do what's best for you right now and move on I'm sorry to have to say something like that but from what I can read here your best bet is to move on he's not ready to get clean nor does he want to get clean I have faith in you find the path that you need to be on put all your faith in God and he'll point you in the right direction you just got to have open eyes to see what path he wants you want and believe with all your heart and he'll set things right
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You honestly are probably right in what you have to say. I'm gonna have to dig deep and get as much strength together that I can in order to do that. Thank you for being honest.
Tori, I hear you and feel your pain. I am curious if you have given any thought to going to rehab for 30 days. It might be what you needs.Time. . Distance. Respite care for your mind.
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Need not needs^^
Cut him loose! Being blunt and honest respectfully. You are not helping him or yourself by staying in a completely dysfunctional relationship. Especially one that involves addiction and fentanyl.
WAKE UP🙏
Get to AA/NA meetings daily and nightly. Immerse yourself today/tonight.
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That's honestly not a bad idea
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Yeah, I'm having to face that honestly and it sucks, but I have known deep down for awhile that I need to move on for myself.
Okay, so your partner is providing you with the fentanyl. Obviously, I agree that he’s not good for you. On the other hand, it’s not his fault that you are still choosing to use the fentanyl. I agree, you need to get away from him, because “just saying no” is much more complicated than it sounds, but you may need to stop making this more complicated than it actually is if you want it to stop. You have to make the decision to stop using. He can’t make that decision for you. No one can.