I had seven full days sober and then I got depressed that I recently lost my job and went to the liquor store. My problem is that once I start I can’t stop. I had a pint of fireball and a sleeve of flavored vodka. Only to wake up with bruises on me because I must have fallen into something. Then stupid me drank the last two days as well. Today I am restarting, back to day one.
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The problem with getting sober is that our minds actually look for the negative situations in life to drink. It's odd. Our rational minds are focusing on getting sober so that we can have a better life and positive thinking. Yet our subconscious mind is rapidly processing any and every even in our life and finding any way to spin it into a negative direction so that we can hit the justification button and drink. Hence why sobriety is very hard to establish initially. In summary... There's always going to be a reason to drink if you're looking for it. Loss of job, strife in family life, dog died, ran out of syrup etc. Anything, and I mean literally anything can be a justifiable reason to drink when the mind is starved for the escape. That's where you've got to implement the safeguards that keep you sober. Practice rational thinking in that moment, which always passes if you'll only just hold out hope. Will they return? You bet. But each time you exercise the ability to ride out a bad moment with positive coping mechanics is a win. And each time makes you stronger. Eventually your mind shifts from looking for reasons to drink to looking for reasons to cope without alcohol. It's a formidable transition in the mind and it will come. Now, you'll still be tempted eventually, but you'll have s better chance to bypass those moments because you'll be better equipped with the necessary coping skills to overcome the situational upset. So why not start now? According to this post, you robbed yourself of three days while back in the fog. Maybe in that three days you could've found another job and made a new ally. We lose much more than our sobriety when we fall back off the wagon. Hang in there and keep looking for a reason not to drink and you'll start stacking days behind one another.
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I had to go to rehab to really stop. I did 3 months. Got a sponsor and worked steps. 3.5y sober
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I had to do the hospital - rebab - SLE route it get sober. Early recovery is hard. I tried sever times to get to where I’m at now. Until I could look at drinking alcohol like a game of Russian roulette, I kept relapsing.
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You’re not alone. Im terrified I wont make it a full 24 hours sober. But im trying. You being is more than you were a few hours ago. Keep it up. Keep coming back to this app. Find podcasts. Find a meeting if you’re ready for one
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I just felt like such a loser yesterday after I drank the sleeve, I should have reached for the herbal tea instead…restarted my counters today on both sober apps I use.
Dust yourself off and keep going stronger than before. You got this!
Ty for this…..
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Of course!!