In a meeting and triggered. Did I even make any sense of what I was feeling. Topic was on control. What came up for me was the death of my sister, she was only 32. Deviated by this sudden loss yet it has been 28months since she was found lifeless.
I have no control over this life altrating event. Nor is she going to return. I have to accept this, let go of this grief. The girl who asked me to share had the same name as my sister her name is Jade! I was able to not cry and give a meaningful share about not having to numb out over her loss but yet I share about this grief and let go of the pain in my heart. If it was in appropriate no one said so. It’s sharing on a trigger like that in a pack meeting was very vulnerable for me yet it’s now here still with me on my mind. I don’t know how to turn off what has been activated.
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It was really brave of you to share sometimes when we do though it does leave us feeling exposed and then reliving the trauma and loss all over again. I didn’t lose my sister but I did lose a best friend to An OD and it still haunts me. Grief is a process. The fact that the girl had the same name as your sister feels to me that your sister is watching over you. Wishing you the best I know it’s hard 
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Yes she is watching over me, I am so grateful that she is. At times it takes me a minute to process that is what’s happening. Yea grief is a process. The only thing I can think about is the edges of my sober and clean. And what is take the edge off
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