I don't have any more solutions to the issues that continue to present themselves in my life.
What have you tried as far as solutions. The only true failure is staying knocked down and not trying again. There's a lesson in everything and I feel like maybe you just haven't heard the right solution yet
Early on in sobriety i was out of solutions. I couldn't stay sober, my performance in my career was suffering, I was losing my family. I needed a solution, I wanted it quick.
I was introduced to recovery, involuntarily. I am glad I was. I found in recovery and in the rooms a solution. I learned about myself and recovery is an inside out job. I learned that the promises come sometimes quickly sometimes slowly.
My hope for you is that you take a courageous step to walk into a meeting and ask for help. Thst you are so desperate for the pain to stop thst ypu will try something simple, not necessarily easy, things to get be stay sober. I do these things one day at a time, and I have a fewb24 hours.