Last night, I heard myself say out loud, "Maybe I will have a drink." And that doesn't mean "maybe" when I say it. Very disappointed in myself. Starting over again.
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It’s so positive to pay attention to your words, helps you know what’s inside. It’s our stinking thinking that keeps us sick. Find meetings stay in the solution. I still struggle also. So I feel your frustration.
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Thank you Beth.
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Hi Damien, happy to hear you are going back to your recovery and not giving up. Keep fighting, and moving forward. I would guess that there is guilt and shame, those are very hard feelings to carry with you. You need to forgive yourself, however that looks for you. My last lapse I was so ashamed, so hurting, so ready to just tell myself I really can't do this, but you know what, I can do this and I kept trying. Over 32 months today and life is going pretty decently overall. I also learned that a lapse does not mean you completely start over, you have learned some things from your sober time before, that does not go away, you are growing, developing a whole new way of living and that takes time. Don't beat yourself up, forgive yourself and keep going, one day at a time!
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Thanks for the good words Jason
That was me two days ago, mate. I totally relate. Hang in there!
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You too
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That’s OK. It happens. The important thing is not stay down about it, but get back up and press forward.
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take it easy on yourself. hopefully it was just a lapse and not a full blown relapse. even if it was a full blown you can only take it one day at a time. you slipped up it’s okay that’s your journey towards sobriety. stay strong stay safe !!
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It is only a slip it is what you do next that matters
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Relapses happen. Get back on that horse brother!
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Don’t beat yourself up brother. It happens to the best of us.
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