Over the years I’ve worked on myself, really getting to know who I am. Looking back into my past, learning to let go, learning not to be ashamed of the things I’ve done, and not living in regret. Instead I’ve been learning, growing, and moving forward instead of backwards. I’ve had to change my perspective and allow a power greater than myself to run the show, because I know when I’m in charge everything tends to fall apart.
Learning to trust in a higher power hasn’t happened overnight, but it has made life easier to live one day at a time. No it’s not always easy, but it does get easier as time goes on. Recovery has taught me that progress matters more than perfection. I’ll never be perfect, and I don’t have to be. What matters is that I stay willing, stay honest, and keep showing up.
At the end of the day I can say that I consistently try to do my best to do the next right thing. I stay mindful of where I came from and grateful for where I am today. Most importantly I stay sober, because I know what waits for me if I go back. I’ve learned that I don’t have to carry the weight of the world on my shoulders anymore.
Trying to do everything alone used to be my way of life, and it’s still a hard habit to break. But recovery and the people in it have shown me something different. They’ve shown me that it’s okay to ask for help, it’s okay to lean on others, and it’s okay to admit when I don’t have all the answers. There is strength in that kind of honesty.
Today I choose to trust, I choose to grow, and I choose to keep walking this path one day at a time knowing I don’t have to walk it alone.
Good morning with love, Christopher W