So... lemme see if i can put this in the right words...
As humans we want to feel accomplished, appreciated , and,
Successful in our wins in our lives...
As addicts, we always found a reason to celebrate these accomplishments, and we did so by using. One of the hardest things i had to teach myself was ways to feel accomplished while still doing it sober. When i was using, i was always able to justify cracking open a beer, or loading another bowl, or doing another hot rail... that character defect took control everytime i had a win in life... it would feel good for the day, but then i would always lose ground somewhere else in my life. Whether it was work, family, my relationship, and my relationships with others.
The short happiness i gained from using, always took another part of my life that was already making me happy. Im so glad that today, i can find satisfaction and happiness that is lasting. Im grateful that my life is no longer chaos. I choose to find that same happiness without drugs. And i find it in my work, my friends, my family, my relationship, and , my relationships with others.....
Thank you.
