Paradox

I like being sober and able to feel other enotions besides anger. I hate that I had to lose so much to get sober. If the bad stuff never happened then I wouldn’t have gotten sober but if the bad stuff never happened then I wouldn’t be sober. Now I have this huge void that I can’t seem to fill, everything feels so unatural. I’m in a constant state of suffering from my past actions.

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Slow outside thoughts

Frank, I get it. Been there. I filled that void with service in and out of the sober community. Acts of kindness, unconditional love and helping folks out is how I redeemed myself. Service is how I get high on life now.
It’s simple, just be kind, patient, compassionate and helpful without expecting sheeitttt in return. It’ll change your life for the better inside & out.
Try it, what do you got to lose?