Im very anxious about getting my paycheck this week. Im already having intrusive thoughts and dont feel I've built up enough self-control not to blow it all on drugs.
Any suggestions?
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I would do a meeting and talk about how your feeling. People will give you encouraging advice 
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Set it up ahead of time to take someone with you when you get your pay or to be with you and explain ahead of time.Having that extra support will help you make the right decision. If you have someone you trust ask them to hold onto your money and only give you what you need for essentials. Your doing the right thing already by admitting you aren't strong enough. That in itself is a big step. You can handle this I have faith that you will make wise choices.
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Get to a meeting every single day. Sometimes twice a day. Ask for help. Ask for a sponsor who knows that Big Book through & through.
Begin working the steps with your sponsor.
Get on your knees and pray. Ask God for help & guidance.
Read the first 164 pages of the BB.
Stop obsessing on your paycheck other than paying your bills. If you begin to think about drugs or alcohol….. change that thought. Get busy doing the work. Or get yourself in a treatment center asap.
Are you in recovery or just trying not to use?
I suggest a meeting. Several a day, if you are struggling.
Find a sponsor and a home group.
Try different groups until you find one you like. CA is a great group no matter what your DOC is.
If you’re looking for treatment, I’ll be happy to help you find somewhere for you to go. I’m in Texas but have contacts all around the country.
You got this. I’m so proud of you for reaching out!!
Set up your bills on auto pay so the come out the morning you get paid. Even if you get a money order for whatever the portion of your rent from the check is and put your landlords name on it. Transfer the money into savings that you have to go physically withdraw at an inconvenient bank. Pray. You e got this!