Is there anyway you can make an appointment to talk through this with a professional? Maybe they can help you navigate through this rough (but temporary!) time you’re going through.
And a little piece of advice. You might not like the first person you see- but you absolutely have the power to choose. I politely asked for a new therapist when I went to check out. I was not comfortable with who I was assigned to first.
Sometimes it isn’t “one day at a time”, sometimes it’s “one minute/hour at a time”. Be patient with yourself and I would agree that you should seek a mental health professional that you click with. They’re part of ‘team you’, make sure they have the ability to be an asset rather than an obstacle.
I’m also sorry for your losses. It can feel endless, but know that time does help, and in the meantime, do the work for and on yourself. It’ll be okay. Things don’t have to be “all right” to be “alright”… you know? I wish you the best.
I have an appointment in two weeks I made it a month ago
I struggle with mental health and when I was drinking and using it was so much worse. It was bad. It can feel like drowning and every time you get your head above water you are pushed back down YET for you to say they were able to see you on your journey is such a gift. You may feel you hurt them but you FEEL that and it’s ok, hun. They are so proud of you right now. Take it a minute, an hour at a time like someone mentioned.
I can make you a promise.. it will get better. Keep going. You’ll see. Keep up the amazing work!
I completely understand what you’re saying thank you .. you put a smile on my face