My mentor spiritual advisor decided to go out after 19 years and ended up brain dead and on life-support and then taking off life support and died. What I’m trying to say is that you’re all worth it cause he told me that I was worth it when I fell down and in the dark place so if you’re struggling, just remember that you’re worth it and just take it one day at a time, but I remember that going out is not gonna solve any problems that you have right now.
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Are you saying he went out and drank after 19 years sober on a whim, then passed away from that? That's really sad to hear after all his hard work. Sorry for your loss.
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Yes he went out and used . And used Fentanyl
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After 19 years of being sober . And stone cold sober to
So sorry for your loss. Thats so scarey, one poor decision and gone. Prayers your way.
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Super sorry to hear that. I had a sponsor many years ago that had 23 years of clean time. Relapsed and died of a heroin overdose. This disease stays with us forever. Can’t ever let our guard down!
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It's unfortunate that time makes no difference, chemicals change the structure of the brain so when we relapse the habit is as if we never stopped. This a major reason why so many of us will continue to use all the way to the end. I hope you're well
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Condolences
Not trying to stir things up, but 19 years sober and he gets a hold of fentanyl? That has suspicious written all over it.
Thank you so much for that reminder, I really had to read this at this moment 🩷
I’m also very sorry to hear that my condolences
I'm sorry for your loss and this disease will trick us even with years clean time
I am so sorry for your loss. You seem to have felt this lesson deeply and I'm sorry it was a lesson you had to experience. Please ensure you're practicing self care while working through all of this. You matter 
I am sorry for your loss.
I can speak a little from my own experience about that slippery slope. I had 12yrs clean from meth. I thought i could help an active addict and his wife that were family. It led to a5 year relapse that nearly killed me 6 years ago. I had a drug induced stroke that left me completely disabled. The life I had that was so stressful and busy is gone along with everything I worked so hard for during my clean time. My house, my marriage, my health. Now, I am still dealing with the consequences of my addiction and my poor choices. My adult children who are repeating history with their own DOCs completely disregard any healthy support i try to give. I am grateful for the fact that they all still allow me in their lives finally. But, the ones struggling with their own addictions blame me and are in deep denial of any responsibility or accountability.
It is killing me slowly.
Relapse is NOT WORTH IT!
That is the bottom line. If anyone is considering it, I beg you not to. Do whatever it takes to stay clean and sober. This disease ruins everything.
Sorry for the book. Peace and love. God bless everyone.