I had just gotten out of treatment after doing 60 days inpatient. My boyfriend just got out of jail on the 23rd and he relapsed. His probation officer said he has to get into meridian healthcare in Youngstown by Wednesday afternoon or he's going to prison. I'm freaking out. I can't handle that happening it's putting me at risk for a reason to relapse. He's the only family I have besides our kids. They won't return our calls for his admission date and I don't know what the heck to do.
He has to call!
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He called all week last week
Be strong for your kids!! Don’t look for a reason to relapse
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I have no Intentions on relapsing. Im gonna be ok as long as he gets to rehab. I go too line meetings daily due to having no transportation and a 4 year old home with me.
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Have faith Grace.
 Pray often and hang in there do this for yourself not for anyone else that way you'll be a better person with love:cowboy_hat_face:
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Hi Grace! Let’s just take a second and pause. Try meditation and prayer to center yourself so you can look at all your potential solutions with a clear head. I want to say how I’m so inspired by you and how quick you are to reach out to the Loosid community for help. We are family and we are here to help. In my experience toxic environmental changes are paramount to a strong recovery foundation. Focus on what you can do right now to help you stay clean and sober. If you find yourself panicking do something that will bring you closer to recovery other than relapsing. Also remember your only responsible for yourself not your husband. You have every right to put you and you Recovery first. Reach out to a fellow, go to a meeting, call your sponsor (if you have one.)
Just take 1 moment at a time. I’m sure things will work out!
Sending much love!
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Give it all to God and trust his process. Thy will not mine is what I repeat in my head all the time. Your not alone and you can rise thru this!
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First of all, don't relapse.
It's a big lie that will only make things worse. You may feel some relief for a very short time, but you always end up where you started, carrying around more guilt, realizing that you accomplished absolutely nothing.
Sometimes treatment centers get backed up. Especially if they have a program in place for the financially challenged.
Just keep calling or try paying them a visit. Stay in touch with the PO and let him know the trouble you're having. Also, both of you start going to meetings daily. He should get a court slip signed at every meeting. You can print one on line or pick them up at a courthouse.
Next time he appears in front of a judge, it will show good intention, and that's what they want to see.
On a sidenote;
If you two have kids together, that's one thing, but if you don't and haven't been together that long, a relationship is the last thing you both need.
Life can get difficult living alone when you have responsibilities. I get that. But it can also be a thorn in our side if one is starting a new journey and the other is backsliding.
If you both can't get it together, you will have to make some tough decisions.
Quitting drinking and doing the 12 Steps of AA is the best decision I ever made. It may seem hopeless where you're at but it's not.
We don't get this way overnight, and we dont get better overnight. It's 10 miles into the woods and 10 miles back out.
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This part where you say I'll be ok as long as. ..that's a setup for failure. In recovery, life still happens. Unfortunately, that includes the downs as well. Your recovery has to be your own, independent from his. I wish you both the very best. Meetings are great. I would suggest, if you haven't already, obtain a sponsor and get immersed in the program, i.e. the steps. You will not regret it. Are there other programs he could get into? I would suggest he call around to any facilities within the area. Maybe there are waiting lists for an available bed. If he could get on one of those and have proof, maybe his po would be understanding. I don't know, it's worth a try.
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Grace
How's it going?
I don't always give popular advice. But I always give sound advice.
I'm not always big on comforting people during their pain. What I am good at doing is showing them what the solution is. But it's up to them what they do with it.
You need to be responsible for your sobriety, and your boyfriend needs to be responsible for his sobriety.
The only thing that you need to take care of at this point is you. And you need to be there for your child. Because if you screw up, the courts could get involved, and then you'll have real problems to contend with. The courts are always going to do whatever is in the best interest of your child.
Your boyfriend is an adult and needs to put forth the effort for his program. He needs to get a court slip and start getting it signed at as many meetings as possible before and after he gets checked into this treatment center.
That's what the courts want to see. Has has been mentioned in other comments you need to get yourself a sponsor and start getting into the steps in order to experience real recovery.
A year from now you're going to be looking through a whole different set of lenses.
I hope this is all sinking in.