I am greatful for the process of SELF INTEGRATION and ALIGNMENT. The pain self, that paracitic past energy, was keeping my current energy low by pulling and pushing me out of each present moment. Those trumatic memories that are constantly begging me to give energetic power to them are like ghost that don't know they're dead, they keep coming back to haunt me. That push into the future that keeps me anxious about the what ifs were stealing my joy.
Finally, after facing a dark night of the soul a few years ago which created the circumstance in which I came face to face with my biggest fear (abandonment) I began to see how some thoughts were killing me slowly. I began questioning everything in the numbing silence that followed the lonley journey. But then I understood, by getting away from everything I knew, I could finally be my authentic self.
I am thankful today, for my sobriety and the knowledge I've gained that helps me truly live self aware and powerful in every new now!!
Me (orange) and my new sober friend!
