I know I haven’t been on here in a while. That is simply because I was doing better but then my beloved mother and best friend unexpectedly passed away on Feb 1st. We just had her funeral yesterday My father didn’t make it because he had fallen that morning and his legs were just giving out. By the time I got home from the funeral my father was yellow. Today I took him to the er. Same hospital my mom passed in and we find out he has a enormous mass on his pancreas the size of a soft ball and it’s blocking whatever tubes help the blood get filtered they had to rush him to a special hospital two hrs away I will go in the am and get more info then. But this doc flat out said it is not good. Mom oj the 1st. Then a cat died on the 18th. Moms funeral on the 20th and now this on the 21st. I just don’t know that I will stay sober I’m kinda totally freaking out. In a panic. Please pray. Thank you
Sending Prayers 
Don’t drink 
whatever you do, it will make everything a million times worse, who knows if you will recover at all, not worth the risk, I know it sucks but you have to honor them and yourself, don’t disappoint either, YOU CAN MAKE IT , My condolences
You can go ahead and give in. Nobody would likely NOT understand. However, you can take this moment to step into your life, as *$@# as the circumstances are. Show others wrong, but mostly yourself. (Mostly talking to myself), and be free.
How the heck would getting high help with any of that?
I sound like a broken record, but go to a meeting.
Sending prayers and positive vibes!!
Sending love and prayers
You can do this one day at a time. Go to meetings, work through the pain with the fellowship, reach out toyour higher power & don't drink or use. It will be okay, I don't know when, but it will if you do the next right thing.
Praying for you and your entire family.
Wow! That's a lot to take. I'm very sorry for the loss of your mother. Please try to be strong for your father
Sobriety is important. Important enough to get help with the grief issues. I know I needed to get professional help after my wife died of suicide and I cannot imagine where I’d be without it. There are some things that AA isn’t good at doing and more to the point you deserve to have skilled help and support through a tenuous difficult process of grief and healing.
Stay strong. My prayers are with you sobriety is everything and at the end of the day it’s better dealing with the problem sober minded heart is with you
Thank you
Go to meeting or do a meeting on zoom stay away from drink think about ur parent and how they would not like tht I’m sure.. think about how far you’ve come think of positive
Sending prayers. The devil will always fight the hardest when he sees you are doing good. You are strong don’t give in.