I feel lost. For two years I have been working towards getting my family back after a stupid decision.
Last week was the first time my wife said she was excited for our future and wanted our family again it was the best week I’ve had in years with my family.
Sunday I went to have drinks at the pool with neighbors and came home blackout and said hurtful things I promised her I’d never say again. I was drunk and broke every safeguard rule and boundary I set in place to get my family back.
She says she is done with me, I am done with that version of me to. No drink is worth sacrificing myself or my family. I’m done but at the same time I feel lost, alone, defeated, a failure, robbed of all joy, and hopeless.
This photo is my family happy together just hours before I destroyed it.
