When I first relapsed I felt the struggle of embarrassment, disappointment, guilt, selfishness and shame. I had thoughts on how I wanted to change my name…to be able to reintroduce myself where I wouldn’t be judged. But you know what? I’ve thought about it and I’m glad I am who I am. The fact that I walk by a liquor store everyday and haven’t gone in. That I’ve made it through every single hardest day of my life and that this disease is REAL. The fact that we are all here trying to better ourselves and knowing that we are stronger than most makes me proud to be in recovery and proud of all of my hard lessons. We are so strong to keep fighting when our addiction is so easily accessible. You can’t even go into a grocery store without it staring you down. Here to remind myself and others of our strength. Whether we have made mistakes, relapsed, hurt ourselves and others.. we still choose to fight. Be gentle with yourselves and give a pat on the back. You’re stronger than you know.
Thank you for writing this encouragement 
To change your name and identity to hide guilt and shame would be stealing from yourself! Think about it... You'd be disallowing yourself to take the credit for your successes when you start pulling down the wins in life!! Changing our identities is an ego thing. Our pride and egos already had a big hand in keeping us lost in the fray for so long. Set it aside and be willing to show off your scars for the battles you will fight and undoubtedly win if only you'll stay engaged.
Absolutely! Proud of all the ups and downs
Very well put !!! Thank you .. I walk by the liquor store too and walk on by … it’s hard but I’m proud of myself and you should be too !!!
Thanks! We got this 
Thanks for your word of encouragement