Quitting juul. Maybe 3 weeks now. Got hit with a couple of dreams, big time self talk battles basically mind over body and playing it forward. Can't say I've won because the body hits you at the speed of light and sometimes in the past I've failed, but I know if I can let it pass just a few minutes, it's leaving me for much longer periods now.
Will it ever be erased from my mind? No, just like the other stuff. That's why the fear of foreign travel. We know many after 11 years sober that think a special occasion makes for an exception. Did it before and it's just like in the book. Maybe not as bad, but life long progression would ensue.
I don't get the normies. My sister drinking two beers in the day before dinner would drain my energy and wouldn't taste that great. Wine with dinner would would make sense, but as I recall if a little feel good was nice why not more? And then on the weekends why not start in the morning. That way your family can be done with you like Satan wants.