I openly admit I have a hard time with this. I get so emotionally involved in my fantasy world and when things don't work out exactly how I planned them in my head I get super sad. I will lose myself, I will disconnect from the day and I will go into a spiral of discontentment. I use to drink or smoke over these situations and it would either go away or it could be stored up with all the other ones waiting for an explosion of anger once I was filled (no one would ever know though because I would only express it to myself, alone).
I've learned that there is this thing called Radical Acceptance. Life brings up numerous situations in which I prefer another outcome. This often leads me to frustration, anger, complaining, and sometimes even resentment. Radical acceptance is a way of seeing something that I cannot change that often amplifies my emotional reactions and letting it be.
I can accept my sadness and embrace myself and then move on.
I'm grateful to be sober today to work through these things with my eyes wide open. I'm grateful for Refuge Recovery along with AA to show me the way with humility.
Much love!
