I remember when I first came into the rooms of recovery. The first things was on my mind and all I thought about was. Where do I go from here? I want it so much for my life until it didn't make sense. I could never work enough hours. I could never be in the streets. I wanted to be like I used to be. I want nails done hair done apartment. On Fleet, I wanted to drive around in fancy cars and be noticed. I wanted to go to all those notable restaurants and be a part of everything that has to do with recovery. Meanwhile, allotted for work and nothing else happened. Sure. I interrupt with the apartment cool. Sure. I ended up with my nails in my hair done. Cool soon? I was able to go weekly pedicures cool. But here's the thing out of all of that. I will still simply just existing because I wasn't doing anything that I valued or anything that I loved. So I was basically just going along with 80 hills and if anybody knows what that means. It means activities of daily living. When you go to work to pay your bills, you'll come home in a shower. You get up to do it all over again on your day off. You go spin on yourseif. It came so constant till that's all my mind played. Let's get to work, make that money. Get home and I did this 7 days a week. Working 2 different jobs at the end of the day, all that was was exhausted and ti. Heard and I woke up to remain still in recovery. Doing the same thing all over here? If anybody out there has the same repetition behavior I'm telling you start putting some interest in yourself. Start doing some things that you love. You can work all those hours all you want to but at the end of the day, if you're not feeling it, you're not filling it. Work your recovery.Don't get lost in it.I love you guys
