So November 21’ I relapsed. That same weekend I moved into a new, upgraded unit at my apartment complex. For those two years I lived here while using-it was a glorified “trap house.” I never really unpacked and made it my own home. Now, 64 days sober and 3 days out of treatment I am back in the same apartment. All substances and paraphernalia have been taken care of thanks to my support, however I can’t help but feel….weird…. I guess I kinda feel like it’s not my home. I am excited to nest and make a home-I love interior design. There is so much I want to do to make it “mine” but it’s also very overwhelming. I can see what it’s going to look like when I am finished (a clash between modern-preppy with a touch of the macabre,) however, I don’t know how to get there. I see “Z” clearly from “A” but “B” through “Y” are a complete blur! I just want it done ASAP so I can stop feeling so uncomfortable!
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Make the journey from A to Z a healing process. No need to rush, take your time and absorb the change. You've moved on and the trap house is in the rear view, getting smaller and smaller.
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