Reaching and searching deeply

Daily Gratitude
#1

because the gratitudes are not bubbling out for me today. I am sitting in the daily muck of my emotions about my girls. I am grateful for waking up sober and looking forward to the BIP group tonight. I know just by addressing my gratitudes I will be able to shift my thoughts therefore changing my emotions. Today is just harder than usual. Knowing my baby just became a mother and being rejected by her and her sister over and over is taking its toll on my heart and mind. I still stand on their strength to be committed to their convictions. I am sad.

I am grateful for living in a sober lifestyle now. The pain is the part I tried to unsuccessfully drown for many decades. I am grateful for confronting my thoughts and feelings today, soberly.

I am grateful. I am. Sober. Stronger than I think. I am grateful for Lil Man and Lucy. Lil Man is being so cuddly this morning....pups know.

I am grateful today is the day our intern comes, she is great and I am looking forward to having her with us today. I am grateful for the honesty from my SU group members, yesterday. I am grateful for the opportunity to serve my community again today.

Sober. Staying sober. Serving others. Grateful.

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#2

Just remember we do recover, that not everyone will receive us and love us the same, it's hard for the population at large to understand where we are headed and my sponsor says just because we get clean does not mean the wreckage of our past does not come up.

Keep pulling on your higher power and don't give up.

We do recover. One day at a time

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#3

Thank you. For this I know. I AM STRUGGLING I just wish my girls knew I am not the devil they think I am. I am NOT struggling to stay sober I am struggling in depression and anxiety for the days have turned to years of being estranged. I miss them!

#4

I understand I lost my son till he was 18 and it's been 4 years, I have 2 more years to go . I'm going to fight to get him back and today is my probation hearing a little nervous but as they say in the program I'm practicing acceptance. Wohh it's a lot of things that happen in this recovery journey. I'm practicing gratitude today . Just keep your head up and keep doing the next right thing .

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