The moment you realize the damage done while using. The lies told, the manipulation the total devastation caused takes your breath away. I’ve been sober 6 months, had a relapse so starting again but it’s that realization your life will never be the same. The relationships you had will forever be broken . I lost my dearest best friend actually the only friend I had left that I thought we could rebuild. But today she very honestly said she just can’t because it’s too much and as hard as we try she can’t forget. She can forgive but has to pull back. My heart is broken because I’m in a new state , in recovery but haven’t really made friends. I’ve made amends with my family but I guess I took it for granted she would see my progress. So I’m on my way to my recovery class and I’m hoping tomorrow is brighter. Because some of my light just went away .
