So last Wednesday at one of the meetings I attend weekly I received a message with the utmost clarity. So at over 3 months sober I’ve yet to get myself a sponsor. This is due partly to not really feeling ready yet and probably due mostly to my addiction making me avoid it. I can honestly say that I know I’ve been putting it of because I know there’s things that still need to be faced and addressed that kinda scare me. However in that meeting as I heard people talk of experiences with their sponsor and these moments they had I suddenly had that feeling of “I want that” that you always hear about. I see a therapist once a week and I’ve never left an appointment feeling anywhere close to some of what people were saying. It helped me to realize that admitting my addiction and my powerlessness against it was not the final end all surrender. I now see and feel that getting a sponsor is maybe the final surrender. I was wrong in thinking that maybe I don’t need to get one. I understand now how important it is to achieve recovery and sustain sobriety. I’ll post another message later about how my higher power reached out and spoke to me about who my sponsor will be. It’s pretty cool… at least I think so lol. Hope you all are having or do have a great day. Talk soon:v:t2:
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