I’m really struggling tonight.
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What's going on?
I was pretty heavily triggered tonight and I always numb this and I am having a really hard time dealing with this sober
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I totally understand! Been there! A lot. First off...drinking/using always the easiest solution at first but as I'm sure you know...leads to horrible consequences so keep thinking about the consequences if you drink/use
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"Play the tape" of all the crappy things that come with the after effect of NOT being sober
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What was the trigger if you don't mind me asking?
I can’t remember exactly. I dissociate really bad when it happens. Sometimes I remember, sometimes I don’t. But I can always tell by the way it makes me feel
Like I could remember it 30 min ago, but now it’s fuzzy
Work? Relationship? Another person? Whatever the trigger was...SO NOT WORTH IT!! Screw whatever it was the triggered you because that's out of your control and its/their own problem. Not yours and DEFINITELY not worth losing your sobriety, drinking/using, and hurting yourself over. Listen to some meditation music (I personally like the ones with nature sounds) and take deep breaths
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Yes. This is good! You are feeling the problem as it is. This is where you get stronger. This is where you face the problems and don't drown them out. It feels weird at first or uncomfortable. You're not used to it. But you will acclimate to it. It's like jumping into water. You know it's going to be cold, and it is cold the first few seconds, but you quickly adjust to it. Just give it time, major work is being done! By facing your problem sober, you are rebuilding yourself in the best way.
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Thank you 
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Hang in there, Ema. Thank you for reaching out. It takes a lot of courage to do that, and that's really inspiring. That may sound absurd right now, but I mean it. You can ride this one out and be stronger for having done so. Keep us updated. 
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I’m so glad I pushed through! It made yesterday and today a lot easier.
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That's great! See? You can do it. Every little victory makes the next one easier.