Really really struggling. I had 5 years clean and threw it all away in 1 second on Adderall, now I can’t seem to stop. I don’t even know how to at this point I would be dead for 2 weeks unable to even get out of bed.
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I had nine years, when back to drinking and almost died, needed a new liver, I’m 2 years clean and I never ever imagined I could do this… please don’t give up hope
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Go to a meeting
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There’s a better way! Keep your head up! It’s worth it! You are worth it!!
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Way to be vulnerable and reach out. Look to Christ!!! Cast your worries and fears to Him!
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There is a really strong group of women in AA in your area that really take care of each other. Reach out, I can get you to them.
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I’ve been there both with drugs and alcohol. I had to take a week off of work and heal while going to meetings. 75 days sober today. It does get better.
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Was sober for 20 yrs. Now 6.5. You got this
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Sending you hugs and strength! Get to a meeting and start from thr
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I had 8 years, 9 months. I feel ya. I have 1 year next week. Glad you are back! Glad I’m back!!!! It’s worth it!
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Thanks God for the gift of life
As long as you're still breathing you got a shot. Drag your a$s to a meeting and get back to living life one day at a time. You're worth it!
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You might need to consider treatment so that you can gain tools to help you in recovery. Also, I suggest heading to a meeting as soon as possible. Share about it and receive the right help that you need!
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I’m realizing that just getting away for a while. A week or two can help you hit the reset button easier. I’ve thought about doing in patient but then I think about my responsibilities and my career. Which neither will matter if things go south
I've relapsed only once... It took me five months to get back, even though I knew that first day out that it wasn't going to work. Ever since then, I've had no desire for my drug of choice. But... it's always alcohol that I think about. I remind myself that if I drink, I'll be doing it alone. It's not the drink that I want. It's the feeling of not being alone that I want. Drinking won't give me what I need. Don't obsess about the drug or the drink. Instead, obsess about how miserable you'll be after. Then use your tools, go to a meeting, call a warm line or a friend, wash your hands or face in hot water, or cold, read or listen to something inspirational. Read what someone else is struggling with in this forum and send a reply.
Hey Kara, I wasn’t able to read the other responses. Have you considered rehab?
You were clean 5 years which is really great. You did it before you know that you have the will power already in you to do it again. Use that to help you and look forward and not backwards
I had 4 years and relapsed, now I’ve been clean 265 days, stay strong! You got this!
Relapse is very common in recovery, like it or not. It has cost me a lot of heartache & pain, but for the first time in a very very long time I feel hope. As long as you want to be better & happy you are on the right path. Take care & know we’re all here for you
Don’t give up hope. Setbacks happen to a lot of us. I hope you have enough support to help you get through this. Use your resources.