Really struggling.
I can't say I want a drink, because i remember too well how I feel the next day (a literal panic attack for the entire time awake, barely able to move, you'd think thats what would have stopped me from drinking)
But, im feeling utterly defeated in life.
When will i stop making mistakes?
I know the answer is never, but you would think i would have learned to trust my gut by now.
Why did i break off the safe, fun, content relationship for the sweep me off my feet, never experienced anything like that before one?
Now both have ended and i am so regretful.
It's like when i first quit drinking, i couldn't stop thinking about drinking. I wanted to, i craved it.
And now i crave not being alone. I dont want to live my life alone.
You don’t have to you have God
You didn't do anything wrong. Everyone makes mistakes, we all make mistakes , we just learn from them.
You're lucky to have experienced those relationships. But they weren't forever, so they didn't last .
Don't be so hard on yourself. You don't need anyone else, and you will find someone again, just like you did before.
You're doing good staying sober. Be proud of that.
And things will get better.
Just be kind to yourself and learn to love yourself.
You're gonna be alright.
Lots of people are alone
Added yo as a friend. Dm me
I added you as a friend as well. You’re not alone. This too shall pass 
Hey I hope you’re doing better!
Added you ! 
Your young try 53 years of destruction and making the wrong decisions. Mom and dad passed while l was taking care of them. Iam 65 and want another drink but l can't or lam gone. Been to 2 30 day residentuals and 4 detoxes. I can't go to those places anymore.... I had to go on social security and my pensions to take care of my mom for 3 years before she passed...
Nor do I!!
I am. Struggling with depression, but, booze won't make it better. So, I continue on.
I am sorry you're going through this.
Everyone makes mistakes. Love yourself and forgive yourself and be kind to yourself.
Hmu anytime to talk.
You'll find someone, it takes time
You're not alone in this remember you're doing this for you and with sobriety you have to be selfish at times so you can grow I definitely agree that you need to forgive yourself. allow yourself to become someone you love so you can properly love someone else. If you don't do meetings I definitely recommend that so you can meet new people I think that the shame cycle is a harsh one but remember to live every day one day at a time and find something to be grateful for.
Hang in there, went through the same thing and I’m still here
All u need is god