Really struggling right now Just left the Northern California Narcotics

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Really struggling right now
Just left the Northern California Narcotics Anonymous Convention

Got numbers, hugs, and literature.. but I had a situation this morning that I think could possibly be a reason I will relapse. I live with my aunts ex husband, he takes me to the clinic every day to get methadone and then drops me off at my outpatient program I’m in because I tried to kill myself .. he said he won’t take me anymore after today I don’t want to go through withdrawal I don’t know what to do he’s such an abusive a hole ..He thinks because he lets me live in his house he can treat me however he wants to and it doesn’t matter

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I'm sorry you're going through that friend. If you tell yourself you're going to relapse ,then you probably will. I know it's hard but there's another way you can't give up reach out to the numbers that you got at your meeting somebody's got to be willing to help I can almost bet they will if it will prevent you from a relapse. Don't give in try everything it's good you're reaching out on this app and if I was closer bro I would totally help you call those numbers

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#3

Hey brother it might be a good idea for you to try a rehab program for 30 days or more to get away from things so you can work on you self I'm from north Carolina I live in Fayetteville if I can help in any way let me know

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#4

People are usually willing to give rides. Many that have come before you have been in similar situations.

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#6

Stay strong Josh. Pray. Lean on God or your higher power. And seek help at meetings. You got this brother!

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#7

I think unfortunately rehab would probably be better than this. I hate my life right now. I didn't when I lived on my own but it was definitely harder. :frowning::frowning::frowning:

#8

Thanks I've been praying all day. :heart:. I am thinking about a meeting tomorrow when my relatives will be eating easter Dinner.