10 months ago I couldn't phathom life ever being good again. Now I'm filled with love of life
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So you’re real then?
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Especially real now that I'm sober and clear headed
I wrote on one of your earlier posts
I want to feel that again. I want to wake up not feeling yucky. Every day that I say no I feel so good at night when I go to sleep (proud!) then especially the next morning! But night time rolls around after a day of horribleness and I’m offered booze. After begging him to not buy me any. His reasoning? “You’ll be sad if I’m drinking and you’re not.” Well, duh, I’m an alcoholic. So is he. But I’m trying to stop. The days I resist I’m for lack of better words “pouty” for maybe 15 minutes when he gets home and starts drinking then I get over it. It’s like my logical mind fights with the alcoholic mind but then I get over it. (Those days anyways..) He uses this 15 minute window of me dealing with it as an excuse to keep buying it for me. I think me drinking too makes him feel better about it but it is literally killing me. Also sorry to bring anything but goodness to your post. I’m truly happy for you 
I was just very upset and have a deep miss trusting of pretty much everything and everyone. Again, I apologize
Christian thanks for sharing your experience strength and hope!
Folks need to know it’s possible. How’d you do it?