I used to think I drank away from my goals and life dreams, and was depressed because of that. I couldn’t shake what my parents taught of “get a job, and just grind it even if it doesn’t make you happy.” It’s only now hitting me I drank because I was depressed that I followed career paths I wasn’t fulfilled in, and I drank heavily because of that. I’ve been dry before for years, but it was always for someone else instead of me. This time, it’s for me, and almost 14 months later it hit how miserable my career makes me. I’m lucky enough however to have a position and company that will pay for mental health leave. So much artwork and graphic design updated in the portfolio, I spend all day smiling, studying and creating. I won’t be going back to my position, and I know I’m incredibly lucky to have a company that pays for mental health leave. But making changes aren’t just setting down the drank, it’s apparent making changes means following what makes me feel fulfilled. Maybe this helps others? I dunno… I just needed a safe place to say it.
I love this mindset- thanks for sharing 
Thank you. Really just needed to say it out loud. Maybe it’ll help others discover where they are stuck.
Amen Patrick 
Absolutely! I'm in the same boat, but I'm no longer just trying to stay afloat... I really need to put into action what fulfills me vs. what's getting me by. I really resonate with the creative aspect and want to just go after it... in the grand scheme of things, when pursuing a dream or life in the creative field, it's not about one goal or one achievement. It's the progression as art - to me, will always be a work in progress; which ironically is similar to us living with our addictions, right? Huge run-on sentences, but you get where my mind is going. Hopefully. Best of luck to in your future endeavors, and always keep that portfolio updated 