Its wild for me to be back in recovery after 15 years. Relapsing was harmful and shameful. I was hugged last night by a speaker. I take the gratitude of being heard and praying over a 90 day chip. I havent made it to 30 days but i do see it happening again.
I hope to work the steps honestly till i see my disease as real amd not an outcome. Coming to terms that i am a alcoholic and have a alcoholic brain helps me understand that i am still in step 1. Hope to connect with others
Hi, Carl. I'm so glad you joined Loosid. Thank you so much for trusting us with your story.
I can only imagine the guilt and shame you may be feeling. But you know what? I'm proud of you for picking up the pieces and starting over. That shows you keep fighting, even when it's hard.
It's amazing that you attend meetings. Greater job on making/maintaining sober connections.
I look forward to seeing more posts from you. I can't wait to see your 30 day chip.
Remember: be kind to yourself.