“Recovery begins at exactly that moment when you are completely broken to pieces and must surrender to unfamiliar and uncomfortable ways in order to be rebuilt into who you were meant to be.”
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I remember the day my entire world came collapsing down on me…07/23/21. As bad as that day was, I’m grateful it came. The walls had been slowly falling apart years before. The last 2 years were really awful. I needed help badly, but was unwilling to ask. I was scared, tired, and everything around me was falling apart. My family, my business, me mental and physical health…all of it was slipping away from me and I couldn’t do anything about it. On July 23, 2021 it all came to an extremely painful and demoralizing ending. Today I’m grateful for it. It was the shock I needed to jolt me out of this insane alternative universe I created to keep my addictions and lies a secret. The pain, shame, and remorse were so intense that it broke thru the numbness and made me feel it. These were feelings I was burying for years. I knew then that this journey I had been on had ended. I wasn’t sure where I was heading next, but this chapter was finally over! I was finally free to have a choice chin which direction I wanted to go. I ran straight to recovery. I’ve been there ever since. It’s been a tremendous blessing. While everything is basically the same, everything is completely different. I always had a good life. I just couldn’t enjoy it. Today I’m grateful and enjoy life. I couldn’t do it with out the help of my recovery program. For me that includes many tools. It starts with AA. The 12 steps, the meetings, and the fellowship have been a tremendous help on a daily basis. The 12 steps are spiritual in their very nature. I’m not going to get into any particular beliefs, but let’s just say I have found peace in my role in this universe. Other tools include podcasts, literature, Loosid, and much more. My wish is that all of us can find peace and happiness in our everyday life’s. It can be done ODAAT 
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