Today I by my own choice… Choose to stay sober! It’s been such a Up & down journey, But for myself I always seem to struggle with mental health issues from day to day… But; at the end of the day I am so grateful for my sobriety and that I can honestly say that I’ve worked so hard to get myself to we’re i am. It’s hard for me to be around anyone who uses which confuses me only because I want to give what I have to another struggle addict but I hold a regret about my past active addiction life that now my Daughter is 19 years old and a struggling addict and I try to be there for her but then I fall to my knees and ask god why can’t I handle the one situation that I once was active in, and no I’m not in denial I have 4 years & 7 months of sobriety it’s more of a pain Of I guess not being able to except anyone else doing the unthinkable to their bodies I just hold a sorrow I only wish I could of been able to at least save my child from the hectic life of which is kll^g so many struggling addicts. I know this probably sounds so bad I hope I don’t offend anyone else on here… But; I’m still trying to solve the crazy puzzle of why?? I honestly think it’s because I hate myself for what I put myself, kids, & family members through and it comes out like this?? I’m still a work in Progress I just have to keep telling myself. Have A Good Evening!!!
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