15 months into my sobriety. Sure feels longer. I went from scared to drink, to maybe I can drink 10yrs from now to how do I get my liver function back to normal? I didnt wake up with the shakes, I didn't drink everyday. But I did drink often and to excess, yes. All for what? Social anxiety and acceptance? My blackouts didn't make me prettier to anyone. Why? WHY! Did I let it go on for so long? Where was my self worth? Why am I suffering now.
Addiction is Russian roulette. And nobody can have you stop. Not your kids, siblings, spouse, rehab. It truly is a personal guttural decision. And I'm pleased I hit my bottom and been swimming up since. Recovery isn't a one size fits all. Try to find the good in this life among all the chaos. One day at a time.
Lisa Marie,
So, so true. I have been on that very same merry go round for years, the blackouts, waking up feeling like crud, where is my vehicle, calling in sick to work. The self shame, why did I do it again? I was doing so good.
Keep the faith. Sounds like you're doing well.
Ty Frank. And I have to say this app helps more than anything. It's like a journal that I get feedback on. I appreciate the similar stories. It really makes you not feel so alone. My mind still plays tricks on me occasionally. But good think I'm stubborn and headstrong. I'm going to my first yoga session followed by a meeting. I'm hopeful but if its not for me I always have my safe space here😊
Keep coming back.
Well said Lisa 
Nice. Relatable. We are the lucky ones. 
Very relatable indeed. Congrats on 15 months Lisa!