is an outing with a like minded person is worth being recognized as a gratitude. Though I teach a substance abuse group and I utilize Lossid often, I have friends who are not addicts and simply do not completely understand me on certain levels. It is refreshing to know those who absolutely "get it." I am grateful for this. I am grateful for getting out and basking in the sunshine for a bit yesterday. I am grateful for my neighbor and her making dinner and dessert. .hard to turn that down when one is single and lives alone on coffee and premade deli salads daily. I am grateful for her homemade apple pie fresh from the oven with a small scoop of vanilla ice cream topper.
I pondered for weeks, to the point of becoming ill how to reach out to my oldest daughter. I have wrecked my brain, my heart, my soul. So painful the estrangement, and I know that emotions will manifest in the body if not recognized and confronted. I have been depressed. Majorly depressed 
and my anxiety and apprehension has casued extremes in restlessness and difficulty sleeping. So, I did something. Finally. No more debating what, only when. I researched sites. Baby registrations on any site possible. I found her. So, I ordered. I wrote no message. I left the information blank as to who the gifts were from. I am grateful for making that decision. My body and mind are grateful and I could feel the release as soon as I completed the order. I am more at peace now. As much as the gifts are for my first grandbaby, I have to admit the act was more for me. I feel more excited now about the situation that had been bothering me so deeply. Control the things you can. I knew and know I cannot make my girls believe I am sober. I cannot make them be in contact with me nor have a relationship. I cannot continue to live with that deep pain, so I sent gifts. That I can control. I am grateful to be a first-time grandma and I know I may never be considered or acknowledged, or allowed to a person in her life. I cannot control that. I am grateful nonetheless for this baby.
I am grateful for my best friend and having her to listen, care, and share her life with me. I am grateful for the pictures and videos she sends of her life with her little girl. I am grateful for today. I am so grateful for sobriety and I am literally counting down days until my 2 years of being and staying Sober.
Lil Man and Lucy. I am grateful for them both. Lil Man is grumpy this morning. He is upset about Lucy being on the bed. He didn't want to share the space so he went to one of the pet beds in my room. He is so selfish and temperamental. Lol. They had words at one a.m. She is tired of his grumpy attitude and is standing her ground when he starts growling and gruffing. Lol!!! I am grateful this happened on the weekend so I can nap at whim today....and not during the week. I love them and am so grateful for their company and midnight quarrels.
I am grateful for clarity in thoughts and feelings all for being and staying sober.