So to start I’m almost 3 years sober. I’ve been having the same relapse dream the past 4 months.
I’m walking around downtown where I used to hang out, I have one beer. I stop at the ATM and go into the one bar where I used to drink my face off and lie to the bartender who is my friend that knows I’m sober and tell them that I’m responsible drinking again and then end up buying a bottle of whiskey and going home. Then proceed to get plastered.
I always wake up feeling like absolute sh**. Guilty, mad, faux hungover, depressed. It always takes the day away from me and I think about it non stop.
Does this happen to many other people?
I have zero want to start drinking again and I think this of why I wake up feeling terrible.
I guess I just don’t want to wake up feeling guilty when I’m sober.
