Why dont I learn. I was sober for a year plus. Then back out. Had 3 days sober, then back out. Last night I fell. Right on my but. Bruised so bad, I cant sit. This is affecting my health, but I cant seem to stop. Need motivation.
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I'm sorry, Scott, that you are in physical and emotional pain. You can stop! It does get harder to stop each time you start again, I think. Reach out for support just like you are doing here! You can do it!!
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@scott255581 we can motivate you all day long and it won't do a thing.
When you realize that you're allergic to alcohol and pull your head out of your a$$ then you'll stop.
Sobriety is an inside job. Again we can motivate you and blow smoke up your a$$ all day long. It won't do you any good. YOU HAVE TO DO THIS YOURSELF. Only you can get yourself sober..
We can lead you to water however we can't make you drink it.
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Yes, inside job. My motivation finally kicked in when I realized that I was doing to my kids what my parents had done to me. I despised them for decades because of the toxicity that they inflicted in me. I finally admitted that I was failing at living - which I thought was having college degrees and a great career. None of my education helped me understand, quit, monitor or control my drinking but AA got me together for sure🙏🏽.
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Slips don’t mean you’re hopeless. They just show how strong this disease is and how much support helps. That fall sounds painful, please take care of yourself and get checked if you need to. You don’t have to wait to feel motivated. Focus on today only. One moment at a time. Reach out to someone, hit a meeting, talk to a doctor, whatever helps you stay sober. I remember these days, I was once there too. It all felt impossible until it became possible and how it became possible was I simply just took it moment for a moment Stay active in groups like this.
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