I never thought I would be here again. I was so confident in my sobriety this time around I felt totally dedicated and committed. Christmas Eve I relapsed and drank 10 shots of vodka at home and went out to the bar and got of course blackout drunk and don't even remember my Uber home and wasn't even with anyone I was by myself. My partner was in another state visiting family for the holidays and I couldn't go because didn't have enough PTO from work to take time off and couldn't afford it. It was just me and thought I would be okay but felt really lonely especially since it was Christmas.
The gym is my normal go to and helps me through but wasn't open because of the holidays and I tried to keep busy. I hadn't been able to get my partner a lot for Christmas due to money and by the time I got paid Christmas Eve it was too late and everywhere was closed and I was just all upset and had been stressed and had been struggling the past month. Since Christmas Eve I have gotten drunk three separate days and last this past Monday night was the last time. I got drunk went to the bar and my partner finally found out and didn't know I had relapsed since Christmas Eve and finally told him and my mom the truth my two major support still in my life and reclaimed my sobriety and glad that it didn't take months to get here. I am back committed to my sobriety and can't believe I am starting over again and was 4 months sober and now I have learned a lot about relapse and what got me there and know what to do when this happens again.
1 day sober - lets go! 
